I Understand

by Hunter Dumped Us Here

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I Understand is the debut full-length album from Iowan Indie Rock band Hunter Dumped Us Here. Fusing emotion and storytelling, Hunter Dumped Us Here tells stories of loved ones as well as personal struggles through an intense musical journey through different styles and atmospheres. The album represents growth, acceptance of being beautifully sad, and surviving.

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released June 22, 2016

Hunter Dumped Us Here is
Gabe Reasoner - Vocals, Piano, Bass, Guitar
Preston West - Guitar, Vocals
Jason Feight - Drums, Percussion
Aslan Denbow - Bass, Guitar

Lyrics written by Gabe Reasoner
Lyrics available at hunterdumpedushere.bandcamp.com
All songs written and recorded by Hunter Dumped Us Here at:
Crown Studios in Cedar Rapids, IA (March 2016)
Drums recorded by Mark Allen and Curt Harman
Mixed & Produced by Tim King & HDUH
Mastered by Yes Master

Guest poetry on "Above the Treeline" by Courtney Snodgrass
Guest vocals on "The Worst Shepherd" by Nick Booth of avoid.
Guest vocals on "Seasons" by Allie Reasoner

Album artwork by Jacob Willenborg
Additional layout by Gabe Reasoner
Album photography by Seth Reineke

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I Understand - debut full-length available June 2016.

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Track Name: Beautifully
There are too many voices for me to understand
Why don’t they take solutions, why don’t they offer prayers
Track Name: Cavendish
There’s a nice man with a pipe smoking cavendish, vanilla
He is loving what I’m saying, that makes one in all Lake Villa
But as the sweat drips from my skin onto the face of my guitar
I hope I make my father proud, because he helped me find my start
And as the tender words ring down on apathetic ears of smokers
I can feel growing burden, that is weighing on my shoulders
It’s the fact that I’ve spent so much time crafting this small dream
But it leads down a long road that no one knows, not even me
And I’m promised to a woman that I love so truly, deeply
And I’m scared that I might let her down if I’m singing when she needs me
Every single time I play it’s a tug-of-war again
And I feel that I’ll be ripped in two if someone doesn’t win
*throat clearing*
I had written a poem to go here before but was left wanting more like a door that leads to a room aforementioned
of which you inhabited, lived in - sin, sin, sinned in - so malignant a figment of your own imagination, these words are the pigmentation of my soul
I’ll give it my honest ex-boy scout try and I’ll just hope that it makes me whole
Is this a rap? I’m not a rapper
I’m a writer, a fighter, collider, proprietor of fires and wires connected from my heart to my mouth
And it makes me spew things out that I don’t even have time to think about
I hope you know I love you, I hope you know I do - I hope you know when I tell you it’s alright it’s cause I’m faking my smile, too
I hate the pain that cancer leaves, I hate working grind and hate disease
And I can hear God asking - do you trust your money or me?
All I know is the quarters we cast - we’ll never get them back
But it was worth the wasted change because we drank the water that splashed
It was worth the wasted change because we caught the water that splashed
My name is Gabriel and I solemnly swear that I’m here for a reason
You can leave that name on your lips cause I promise you that this isn’t a season
You can tell me that my life is a failure - a poverty train that will run off track
But even if I play till all of the ivories break - I’m never coming back
I’m never coming back
There was a piano in my parents home
I spent my days on it when I was young
But I never wrote a single song
That didn’t hold a place inside my soul
Here’s to the depression of getting old
Here’s to the creasing in your papers fold
Here’s to the letters that I never wrote
Here’s to the fires that I should not have stoked
I burned an oak tree in my backyard
I bet that tree had to brace hard
Not to buckle with the world’s weight
But it fell when the axes came
There’s still a piano in my parents home
I cherish time on it, though I’m not young
Some days I feel that I have lost my soul
But I just pray that I don’t lose your love
I just pray that don’t lose your love
Track Name: No Good Men
I am the object of a pervert’s desire
Pushed to the fence, stripped of my pride
I have been hunted, exposed like a prize
That no one wants, except in the dark
All of these monsters under my bed
Like me too much, make me feel sick
Tickling me, breaking my trust
I am not laughing, this game is old
Oh, come to my window - sing me a song
Sweet words and sonnets, sung like a lark
I care not for lust, or stories of sex
I’m strong enough to stand from this bed
I am a warrior against fallen pride
Sword cracked and broken, shield shining bright
Laugh all you want, watch as I cry
You won’t be laughing when I claw out your eyes
Oh, when I claw out your eyes
I am an object against fallen pride
Let me go
Track Name: Lost My Name
I hope there’s a deity that can absolve all the holes to which I’ve crawled
If the answer indeed is no, one more look before I go
I am a one man firing squad, into the skin, shall deeply prod
In the shape of typing keys - oh the bullets cut to bleed
I realize you are my wife, but your tongue is like a knife
One that carves into my heart, this will tear our home apart
Well I think we’re in a bit of trouble now
We promised love that would last to the grave
But our lives took a turn and oh, how you’ve changed, my darling
Yeah, I realize I was partially to blame
But you were so,so quick to abandon my name, my darling
It’s like every single promise that we ever did make
Was forgotten in an instant when you lost my name
And you love him more than you love me and it’s killing me
Oh it’s killing me
But if that was the last night that we kissed
I hope you had the realization then
That I never, never, no I never wanted this
I hope this game of cheap romance ends before I have the chance
To ever touch the skin of this tempting mess I’m in
I hope I learn where wrong begins, I hope I devastate that bridge
Because you looked me in the eyes: “48 hours, love, goodbye”
And this is breeding every type of hate that I never wished to create
What a horrid way to set the tone for an awful life alone
Well I don’t think we’ll get out of this one now
We promised love that would last to the grave
But our lives took a turn and oh, how you’ve changed, my darling
Yeah, I realize I was partially to blame
But you were so,so quick to abandon my name, my darling
It’s like every single promise that we ever did make
Was forgotten in an instant when you lost my name
And you love him more than you love me and it’s killing me
Oh it’s killing me
But if that was the last night that we kissed
I hope you had the realization then
That I never, never, no I never wanted this
I’m gonna pray you see the morning light
I’m gonna force myself to open up my eyes
I’m gonna pledge to stop telling myself lies
I’m gonna tell myself it’s gonna be alright
I’m gonna start again in an empty house
I’m gonna find a purpose to sing about
I’m gonna let you know that I’m still your man
I’m gonna pray that someday you care again We promised love that would last to the grave
But our lives took a turn and oh, how you’ve changed, my darling
Yeah, I realize I was partially to blame
But you were so,so quick to abandon my name, my darling
It’s like every single promise that we ever did make
Was forgotten in an instant when you lost my name
And you love him more than you love me and it’s killing me
Oh it’s killing me
But if that was the last night that we kissed
I hope you had the realization then
That I never, never, no I never wanted this
Track Name: Ready ; Aim
They say that medication makes it better
I respond that chemicals aren’t helping my cause
When you put your hands around my neck
Please forgive me if these shallow breaths pause
Well I’m trying to stay on the bright side
But it keeps telling me to try another time
Life is like a bullet lodged deep into my skin
Only God can dislodge it but I’m still waiting on Him
Mother’s disapproval burns deep into my heart
Father stabbed me in the back and oh, his knife was sharp
I need a fresh start
You know that I’ve got beautiful sisters
You won’t show them love so I will do that for myself
Life always starts out so pretty
Then becomes ugly when love gives it hell
Well I’m trying to hide from the dark side
It says life’s a joke and death’s the punchline - get it?
Life is like a bullet lodged deep into my skin
Only God can dislodge it but I’m still waiting on Him
Mother’s disapproval burns deep into my heart
Father stabbed me in the back and oh, his knife was sharp
I need a fresh start
Pull the trigger quickly, take your best shot
You won’t ever stop me, give me all you’ve got
I’ve always tried to stand up when the waves are crashing down
But the water is rising, it will take the whole town
Every day I smile I am met with a frown
It’ll be but a few days till I drown
Life is like a bullet lodged deep into my skin
Only God can dislodge it but I’m still waiting on Him
Track Name: Ornate and Carved
Little red trenches, coursing through fields
Of the battle of my body, where soldiers go to fight
Like mom and dad do every night
Little white bubbles clean off the marks
But I know where they come from
I made them all myself, they spell words inside this shell
When they laugh at me it makes me want to sleep
The devil made a deal and I made promises that I can’t afford to keep
Waiting to become unbroken and repaired
I hate this razor and the memories we shared
Little red candies fail to kill pain
That is found in these trenches
Buried with my shame and the onlookers that wait
Little red valleys, deeper they go
Will my parents think I’m crazy
When I show them my mistakes and the trenches I have made
But they’re healing
I have plans to bring prison to the ground
On the battlefield a medic in the trenches can be found
I would call him if I truly thought he cared
This is not the first time I have seen him there
Little white bandage, redemptive gauze
Stops the bleeding, words so soothing
I am worth more than I know, though I’m feeling so alone
Little red trenches in medic’s skin
He is dying, sacrificing
To a sculpture he is pinned so I don’t have to bleed again
The words he said to me are swimming in my head
Enough to make me take the weapons from my bed
Put them somewhere where they won’t be seen again
This disarming marks the bloody battle’s end
Track Name: Take the Island
Do you honestly think you’re funny
Have you always expressed yourself this way
Are you gaining something from hitting me
Are you going to make this a tragedy
I see you everywhere I am - Do you honestly think you’re funny
Much more than my body was hurt - Have you always expressed yourself this way
I hope you meet a bigger man - Are you gaining something from hitting me
And I hope he drags you through the dirt - Are you going to make this a tragedy
What made you like this, could you even try to fight this
I am now concerned with who I am
Should I even give the slightest damn
I know nothing within has changed
They gave it a name but I am the same
I have discovered troubling news - I am now concerned with who I am
I placed my head into my hands - Should I even give the slightest damn
The tears in my face say I do - I know nothing within has changed
I didn’t want this thing I have - They gave it a name but I am the same
What made me like this, should I even try to fight this
I will do greater things, though my “condition” has a name
My mind is a lone island and it belongs to me
And I will conquer it as I please
I know you think I’m worthless, you’re wrong - I matter, friend
I will rise to higher levels, more than you can comprehend
I know you think I’m stupid, you think you’re more than me
It’s alright if you think you’re funny
Cause you’ll get yours eventually
Track Name: Above the Treeline (Feat. Courtney Snodgrass)
I saw you the other day, I saw you almost fall because your left leg wanted to give out
I saw your left arm stop working the way that it used to about a year ago
Your body was deteriorating
I never thought that I could miss someone as badly as I did in the month after the surgery that was supposed to help you
But it ruined you
The coma left you motionless and quiet and all I could do was cry
The tube that helped you breathe made me want to gag
You never liked your feet covered by the sheet and every time I came to visit you, the nurses had covered them up
So I fixed them for you
I wish I could fix you and make you better again
And I caught myself several times before I referred to you in a past tense and remembered that you were still alive
But only because of the ventilator

I remember hearing the bell after winning the fight
White walls of a busy hospital held me in its arms, but I most missed your skinny, frail,
white arms that hugged me with the last of your strength
I was only a little boy and I couldn’t begin to understand why your hair kept falling out and you
didn’t look like everyone else’s mom
Many trips to the hospital and dad behind the wheel and you staring out the window while I stared at you
I remembered the chemicals entering your body and you throwing them up
Finally your last dose of chemo came and soon your cancer was gone, and I remember the last time we went to the hospital and the woman in the white lab coat said we wouldn’t have to come back for a long time
After fighting so hard and getting knocked down and getting back up again, you’d won
We honored the pink breast cancer ribbon but fifteen years later and Dad insisted talking to my wife and I and I learned then that Mom would lose her hair once more and lose her strength and wouldn’t be able to hold me tight like she used to
Mom had to be a fighter again, I had to be a fighter again
We had to fight again
Mom was a survivor once and she would fight again
Cancer is a merciless war but we would win again

Your baby shower was pink, everything was pink
The balloons, the plates, the tablecloth, the wrapping paper
You were born not long after your celebration and the nurses gave you a pink blanket and hat
You were tiny but you fit perfectly in everyone’s arms
How someone could ever shake you so hard is something I would never be able to understand
The seizures started and we rushed you to the emergency room
White walls of a hospital held me when I could barely look at you any longer
Tubes to help you breathe do not belong in a baby who’s barely begun to live
18 months old and your life had already ended
The angels came to get you

I’m sorry I didn’t believe you when you thought you were having a stroke
I have more respect for hypochondriacs now
I’m sorry you drove yourself to the hospital and sat in the emergency room by yourself
I’m sorry I’m confessing to you as you lay motionless in an uncomfortable bed and live from a machine that breathes for you
I don’t know if you can hear me
I’m sorry I don’t know the answer for holding your life in my hands and that it’s all getting heavy
Because my strength isn’t as strong as it once was
I’m sorry the plug is what’s keeping us at length
I’m sorry I was never prepared for the doctors to give you a medicine that pushed you into this coma
The white hospital walls hold me as I cry
How was I to know I’d ever be sitting beside your bed with my head on your chest, my hands holding yours
Remembering how when I was a little girl you’d rock me to sleep
I’m not ready to rock you to sleep, mom

Never thought I’d know what it feels like to be so much bigger, so much taller than the trees
They call me a giant here and I’m not ready to be one, no I’m not
They call me a giant now and I’m not ready to be one, I’m not ready, no I’m not ready, no I’m not
They call me a giant now and I’m not ready to be one
Just one thing before you die, please realize you’ve changed my life
Track Name: Fatal Sleep
A house is a house when you move into it
Until it becomes the place that you stay in
It slowly turns to the place you live in
And one day becomes the place that you die in
I don’t if I can die with you, I don’t know
Flames are rising in the middle of the night
Never thought they would get so high
Too many pills in the middle of the night
Oh, tell my family that I tried to fight
A bed is a bed when you first lay in it
Until it becomes the place that you sleep in
One day turns to the place you dream in
Until you’re awakened by the nurses
I don’t know if I can live in here, I don’t know
Fists are flying in the middle of the night
Holes in the walls and I’m not alright
Valium in parks in the middle of the night
You never told me I would lose this fight
Watch me fade, watch me fade away
Watch me fade, watch me fade away from you
Like the spirit of my anger
Hurtful words in the middle of the night
Show me who exactly is by my side
A friend or a lover in the middle of the night
Well I did not start, but I will end this fight
Track Name: The Worst Shepherd (Feat. Nick Booth of avoid.)
I rue the day that I became ruined and I await the day when you will meet your end and
I set the flame to all you’ve created and I can hear your name inside this destruction
You will burn, you will burn
You will never scare me again, I will stand at the edge and I’ll push you in
You will burn, you will burn
You will realize in your final hour, you’re a weak, snapback-wearing, child-touching failure
Track Name: Seasons (Feat Alexandra Reasoner)
I almost remember calling seasons beautiful
With you blowing cherry tobacco smoke and it drifting up the stairs
Security found in the midst of an insecure home
Everyone’s been storing their skeletons somewhere
But they won’t tell me where or what they are
I’m the smallest amount of salve trying to keep a wound from turning to a scar
All I want is a friend, someone to delicately cradle my fingers in their hand
All I want is a dream, one that doesn’t end with loved ones meeting a bitter end
I want to know, I want to know what’s it like to know what you want
I want to feel, I want to feel what it’s like to know what you love
Grab hold of the mistakes you’ve made, lob them high in the air and let them drift away
You’re the reason I believe in change, you’re the reason that I’m not the same
Pull yourself from the grave you’ve made, let the waves wash the base of your house away
I left because I had to change, you could leave and escape this pain
I want to know, I want to know what’s it like to know what you want
I want to feel, I want to feel what it’s like to know what you love
Grab hold of the mistakes you’ve made, lob them high in the air and let them drift away
You’re the reason I believe in change, you’re the reason that I’m not the same
Pull yourself from the grave you’ve made, let the waves wash the base of your house away
I left because I had to change, you could leave and escape this pain
I almost remember calling seasons beautiful
Track Name: Dive Into Pools of Transient Light
What do you think of when there’s nothing left
I hear you’ve taken a bad turn, wonder what’s in your head
As long as I can remember, you have been our friend
If you lose this battle, I hope new life begins for you
Somewhere bigger, somewhere brighter
Away from toils and cancer’s grip
If there’s dark between those two worlds
I wish you the most hastened trip
Can you feel the sickness washing over
Slowly all your colors turn grayer, colder
Full of inner vibrance, weak on the outside
Left there like a beacon with no one meant to find - be found
Too many nights of treatment will make you just a shell
So promise me you’ll do this always: you better give that cancer hell
Rise up unto the heavens, caress the bright stars with your heart
This dark world tells a story of which you are a part
If this world forgets you I’ll remind them who you are
Transcend like a beautiful, dying star
Your will is an ocean despite your scars
And you hold a special place within my heart
White shadows could take you at almost any time
When you hear them coming hold shut your brown eyes
When there’s no strength left in your bones to fight
Just dive into pools of transient light
Track Name: Sad
I used to think that I could mend things
I used to think that I had some strength
I was certain that I had the answers
To make all the pain go away
I didn’t understand the voices
Why do they sound beyond repair
Why don’t they take solutions
Why don’t they offer prayers
I felt like a guardian angel
Watching over the ones I love
Till I awoke with a broken conscience
And realized what I was dreaming of
I know what it means to suffer
I have learned to hate oneself
I’ve been hiding it since I was younger
But it continues to siphon out
I’m not your guardian angel
I am damaged beyond repair
My intentions are far from pure
You are beautiful voices that I can understand